Moments Of My Life

2012-02-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

Destiny..

2012-02-11T15:40:00.002+08:00

In this life, we've tried.. we're fortunate.. we're happy.. but not fated.. If destiny allow, i'll make you mine for the next life..

2012-02-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

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2012-02-10T18:54:00.001+08:00

Woman's instincts..

2012-02-07T12:42:00.001+08:00

Woman..
Love being treated bad..
Kindness begets no good..
Woman..
Should not respected them much..
This is where my problem is..
I'm damaged..
Is too fucked up in woman..
Its too hurtful..
Should stay away from woman..
Should stay away from love..
For a period of time..
To be heal..
To be cherish..
To be appreciate..
To be me.. again..

Our Story...

2012-02-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

This is a movie that reminds of our story... We both started with the same purpose as a cover up against our ex-es... Well, eventually i fall for you... In everything that you are... I never thought that this could be happening... And i was happy in the moment when we're having all along... The common scene in this movie was the wrestling part that i had with you... I'll never forget that... my silly girl... =)

One Way..

2012-02-02T18:37:00.003+08:00

What i felt was only my wishful thinking..

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2012-02-01T20:22:00.001+08:00

Down & Lost...

2012-02-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

I have lost the usual me.. a total lost.. i didn't know what am i doing.. i just do without any senses.. since that day i lost silly girl..

Remorseful...

2012-01-28T02:01:00.001+08:00

I am the party who ruined it...as a matter of fact, its a problem face by both parties,yet i walk away,leaving you in lurch...didnt have the understanding in facing the problem along with you...i shouldnt have walk away from you...i have put my egoness above you...i shouldnt in fact...i shouldnt...and for that, i am sorry...towards you silly girl...

Silly Girl...

2012-01-27T18:39:00.002+08:00

I miss you....

It will rain...

2012-01-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

Empty Soul

2012-01-23T16:00:00.002+08:00

Sudden thought of the day we had been through where every night of a call before sleep..
Sharing both our daily event through out the whole day..
Missing those days...

Wishes For Silly Girl

2012-01-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year silly girl!! all the best to you in the year of dragon!! =)

Memorable Voices

2012-01-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

Memorable Voices

2012-01-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

Well, if i'm not wrong this are the few songs that i love to listen from silly girls nice voice.. I love it when she is singing Cantonese songs..

Deep In Heart

2012-01-20T10:58:00.001+08:00

I still miss silly girl everyday... but... I should not have done this... why...

How have she been?

2012-01-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

Silly Beautiful Moments

2012-01-18T12:22:00.001+08:00

Does anyone ever been in a wrestling fight against your loved one?
Does anyone ever been in a chit-chatting and a warm cuddle before sleep?
Does anyone ever been acting cute in front of no others except you?
Well, I had all of those moments with her.. =)

The one and only in my life =)

2012-01-17T13:36:00.002+08:00

Never regret of having you, the only regret is.... losing you....

2012-01-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

2012-01-12T17:44:00.002+08:00

Still... i want to be your guardian angel...

Lovely Sa Po

2012-01-11T19:03:00.003+08:00

thank you for the chance that you have given to me a year before..
i will cherish the moment that we have been through..
you are the person that could make me angry.. yet..
i love the most.. loving you.. so long..

To HELL with you CHEATERS!!!

2011-05-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

damn cheaters! fuck you all!! to hell with all of you!! cheat ppl of their hard earned money!!! fuck you all!!!!!

I Miss You...

2011-05-18T20:14:00.001+08:00

miss you so much~~~~

Does She Miss Me?

2011-05-17T00:02:00.001+08:00

I wonder???

I'm sucks...

2011-02-14T22:03:00.003+08:00

Ya ya... I'm sucks... After all, all i can get is 'i'm sucks' for the valentines day... ya... i'm wasting everyone's time... even on this very special day... thanks... valentine day sucks...

My Answer Would Be "Yes, indeed. I Do Miss You Dearly"

2010-12-28T02:26:00.002+08:00

Well, since u left my hometown and headed back your own home. I do felt lack of something in my life. I would felt loneliness without you being by my side. Especially when night that i would take sometime before i could get myself asleep. An empty space by my side, a silent whispering of 'goodnight' around my ears, a tight cuddle to keep each other warm and a smooth lip touch that could give me a comfort rest through the night. In the morning though would make me feel uneasy for not being able to take a glance at you on your sound asleep face and waiting for you to wake up. And there is this day when you ask me a questions that it had been in my mind for all the time without you is that 'Do You Miss Me?'. And for that, my answer would be 'Yes,indeed. I do miss you dearly'..... =)

Deep In My Heart... I Know The Answer...

2010-11-19T13:32:00.003+08:00

The answer is... I still love her......

Red Bean Soup.....

2010-11-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

A Change In Me...

2010-11-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

I must make a change in myself... A change that is needed... Towards a gentlemen path,matured needed... No more vulgar words... Seriousness is a must.. Of course... lastly... Do not blow over the top so frequently and easily... Temper needed to be control... Before of me was too over bad tempered... A self realize woke me up... A new path that needed to be done!!

2010-11-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

2010-11-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

I Miss You......

2010-11-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

I Am Holding On.............

2010-11-16T21:27:00.001+08:00

My Best Listener...

2010-11-16T20:04:00.002+08:00

No one would know what am i thinking all about... Only my blog that is my best listener... A sudden down feeling in me... I miss her...

Afterall, I'm Not The Understanding Side...

2010-11-16T14:11:00.002+08:00

After sometime from being alone... I had realize more what is the matter that lack in me... The understanding is what i am lacking of... She is a carefree and love for freedom being alone without any obstruction... Hence, i had realize that i was not that understanding towards her... Rather than supporting of she doing what she want, i put on a fucking face and a petty minded of me that makes her disappointed... Being herself is what she is... sorry... I am not an understanding guy after all... sorry......

2010-11-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

2010-11-15T18:41:00.002+08:00

Seeking For A Peace Of Mind...

2010-11-15T13:19:00.002+08:00

I was kinda freak out surprisingly of myself... Wow! Jacky went to pray at temple alone for the first time!! Could have said that i was going to seek god to enlighten me and as to lighten the burden in my heart... i am so tired... exhausted... fatigue... but still i want to go out everyday with my buddy to hang out as this was a kind of way to ease my mind and this would make me happy though... and so... hoping the god would get to listen to my praying as the pray that i have made wasn't for myself... It was for all the person that i care and love...

Indeed... Blissful...

2010-11-14T18:52:00.001+08:00

Well, come to think of it... I had been twice in relationship before... Both was different kind of relationship i had been through... For the first one, its been nearly 3 years i am in it... I was kinda pure in it and contented with what i had all along... But... For the second relationship... It last for 2 months... Yet, the feeling that i had was like 2 years... The feeling that we had put on was not calculated by time... Yes, indeed... I was more happier with my second girl... More blissful... Indeed that i had been through all kinds of moments with her... To be happier, sad and even angry that often we got onto an arguments... But, that was the moment that i had learn to treasure it... Indeed, i still love her now... But i have to let go... And my life goes on... To be a better So Lou... hoho

No More Sadness...

2010-11-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

No more sadness for me,Jac... Now, concentrate on studies!! I'm ready to go!! hoho

Sorry That I Love You

2010-11-13T12:59:00.000+08:00

Why Do I Miss Her So Much?

2010-11-13T11:10:00.002+08:00

I miss her a lot... since we already go separate ways... i need to go through it... but when?why do i still miss her so much??

Missing You.....

2010-11-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

I'm tired after exam, long journey back home... turning up and down, left and right... but just couldn't close my eyes and sleep... insomnia... an empty space beside my bed... lacking of warmth beside me... without putting socks on you... without covering blanket for you... without staring the looks of falling asleep... without YOU.......

Miss You.....

2010-11-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

so po, thank you.....

2010-11-12T22:05:00.001+08:00

No Longer Exist...

2010-11-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

Sa po o sa po, sa po sa po o sa po, sa po sa po o sa po, o sa po o sa po...........i miss you..........

A Memorable Past For Her.... A Dark Moment For Me.....

2010-10-25T13:03:00.003+08:00

I'm afraid... Still having this fear in me... Deep in my heart, i could sense that the past still meant something to her... I could sense that... From her reaction... Her attitude... But i wouldn't stop her from contacting with him... If she's mine, she would definitely be mine... however.......

Insecure...

2010-10-25T03:31:00.002+08:00

The past... would be the past... Is it true? I doubt it... The past could leave a fond memorable memories in someone's heart... It could take it back... just a matter of time... The past strikes back... My heart shivering again... shiver in fear... Leaving a sense of insecure feel that she might return back to the past... Yes, i am afraid.....

I'm Not Alone Anymore....

2010-10-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

Streneous life that i had in my uni life... No matter in studies or out of studies matters... Everything that i had been would not letting me feel that i'm alone... All i had now was 'her'... She have been playing an important role in my life recently... I'm glad that i have her by my side... thanks..... love her......

I'm Not The Person She Would Sought... Afterall....

2010-10-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

I would rather be her friend which she would sought me for her grievance though.....

I Love Her... Let Go? Should I?

2010-10-13T11:00:00.002+08:00

I do love her... But on the same time i feel sorry for her because of me... And yet the circumstances and life that i had seems like wouldn't allow me to love her... Is it a sign to let go?

Helpless When She Is Stress....

2010-10-11T21:35:00.003+08:00

I love her... I wish i could do something to ease her tension... I would not want to stand aside and do nothing just to watch her endure the stress that she is going through... but... how? I try to console her but her stress is still spinning around her... I could not do anything but just to look at her silently by her side... the thing is that i'm having the same stressful life with her... can anyone tell me how to console the person who meant something to you while our ownself was having the same pressure inside us?...........

Do I Look Like A Person Who Adding Stress To Someone?

2010-10-08T17:15:00.002+08:00

Do i look like a person who give someone stress? haha... Rather look for friend for consoling... some more is opposite gender... Can't believe that i am a person who add more stress to her... Am i unhappy? Am i jealous? Why? All i can was just buying something or do something for her but not consoling by communicating... How failure i am...

I'll Think Of You Tonight...

2010-09-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Three Wonderful Words...

2010-09-06T17:53:00.002+08:00

I could not express my feeling out when suddenly she those three wonderful word came out from her... It was on a sudden circumstances when i was not on notice at all what came out from her on that very sudden moment... I was stunned at that very wonderful moment, don't know what should i do next... My soul flew out to her and my heart melt down at that moment... But at that moment, i know that my three wonderful & blessing words was meant to her...=)

Short-Lived Happiness...

2010-08-30T00:03:00.002+08:00

It was like the end for both of us... I had to let go... Because i know there wouldn't be any ending for us... But during this few days... I had my best of time with her... A moment which i cherish it... Especially during this few days trip at Penang Island... I wouldn't be able to accompany her at night during the second day of our trip... Instead of it, she took care of me... With a forehead fever plaster & a fish porridge with her attentive care for me... I get well soon after a night... I had a wonderful moment with her by my side during this few days... Seen her smile for each day makes me content... I had to admit she had a sweet smile... I would miss that smile that she smiles to me... I couldn't bear to... But i had to let go..... although is short-lived happiness that i got... =)

Pictures Of Her...

2010-08-22T07:59:00.004+08:00

Oh my... I don't know why but i just woke up early in the morning today... SHE is the one that first thing came upon my mind when i woke up... Images of her enjoying the Mcflurry that i bought her with a smile on it kept appearing in my mind from yesterday night until i woke up this morning... It was..... wonderful i should say... In this moment, i could only say that truthfully..... I.... miss her...... =)

My Apologizes, Beautiful Smiles... Oreo Mcflurry

2010-08-21T21:22:00.006+08:00

Finally had a relieved... i know the truth... i'm a real selfish guy... all along i thought i had done the right thing for her... but instead, i had hurt her real bad... i'm such an idiotic... my stupidity cause not just myself miserable but also her miserable... i'm wrong... i had known my wrong... i'm sorry for her... Well, i promised myself that i would seek for her forgiveness & i will get her forgiveness someday... She wants her Mcflurry back! Well, i bought her Mcflurry but sorry that it had melt along the journey to pass to her... Hope that she don't mind... But i could see her smile when she eats the Mcflurry... Finally, SHE smiles... I had make the girl that i fond of smile... Kinda felt happy... Its been some time since i last saw her smile in front of me... Well, i could say that its a Beautiful Smiles.....

Miserable.....

2010-08-21T05:06:00.001+08:00

i'm hanging on a cliff... what should i do? i lost something precious to me...

Heavy Words...

2010-08-18T03:09:00.002+08:00

Leading my life as usual... archi students life... rushing assignments... needed sleep badly... struggling to rush on submission date... but the soul wasn't on me... heart carried a load of concerning weight about someone but could only be carried along the way... couldn't be shown... could only slowly faded away along time...

Sick...

2010-08-17T16:03:00.003+08:00

Here i am blogging again... running away from reality... i am exhausted... just an hour of sleep would keep me up for the rest of the day unwillingly... and here i am down with sick syndrome... body heat & weak in health condition... got an advice from my dad through phone with worried emotions about this son of him... kinda felt heartwarming from my family... but i just wouldn't listen to their advice most of the time as i'm lazy to do so with those troublesome procedure... :/... so here i am ended up sick... not just normal sickness, but with loneliness sickness... =/

Alone...

2010-08-17T02:42:00.002+08:00

am i alone? or is it there is someone for me out there? lonely.....

Stress....

2010-08-16T21:13:00.003+08:00

Its the same old way in my university life... rushing for assignment... damn tired... under strenuous stress... sudden felt lonely... need a companion to share my thoughts & feeling... =(

Misery...

2010-08-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

Neutralize....

2010-08-12T01:14:00.003+08:00

I'm totally out of control over myself... what happen to me? i'm sick of life... is it better to be a good person over a bad person or is it better to be a bad person over a good person? my answer would be neither one... neutral! but until now i still could not neutralize myself... whenever i try to do good, eventually it would led me losing control of myself to do bad... i'm totally a different person compare to whom i am before... i found out that i'm doing bad rather than good... got a foul mouth, criticizing people, taking jokes on someone, hurting people, & driving like crazy hell recklessly... life was sucks... i do not want to do any good & neither do i want to do bad... so that is why i choose to stick with neutral... i'm really sick of life... but i do not know what was happening to me recently... i wish i would know... i'm lost... so i'm losing control of myself by doing bad... i'm such a real Jackass... o0o

My Thought Sharing Friend...

2010-08-11T16:41:00.002+08:00

Here i am again... searching for my best companion to share my thoughts... who else could it be except my BLOG? haha... well, recently i'm out of my ownself... it seems like i'm totally out of the brighter side of me... it seems like i'm totally rather to lock myself in the dark side of my own world... how i wish i could find the crazy side of me back on track... c'mon Jackass, be the clown to your ownself!! Jac, where are you??

Jackass : The Clown

2010-08-07T14:58:00.002+08:00

Well, its been a long time since i last blogging... Should be said that when i'm feeling real down & upset i would only be blogging... Is it because i couldn't find anyone to share my thoughts? of course it is... i'm feeling like a 'clown'... which only will try my best to make people around me laugh... even would try the best that i could to bring the smile out of the person that i fond of... i could be there when people's are down... but there are no one for me when i'm feeling down or upset... does that worth it? well, i don't know... sometimes felt like i'm such a real fool... a fool which could be by their side when its down mood but me alone myself feeling down by keeping it & settling it all by myself... i am really such a jackass... feels like myself as Jackass : The Clown!!

My Life In Two Semester

2010-04-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

Well, here i am... Still struggling on my life as an architect student... Life is getting harder in this course... But still, i have to hold to it as it is the path that i had chosen & my future... In this two semester, i had learned many things especially on my life experience... From a little baby, cuddle by my parents... to kindergarten, primary, secondary even until now in university... A lot of matter that had occur to me... In this two semester of my university life, my life totally changed compare to who i am previously before i get into university... Well, could said that its really a matter of experiencing moments that brought me up after i fell down again & again... I had learned to socialize with people compare to previous me than i shut myself up against social... Its fortunate that i met a bunch of member in my course... Its fun hanging around with them... I had an enjoyable university life even its stressful under plenty of assignments... Second semester its going to end & that also means that i had to move out from university hostel which i couldn't get enough merit marks to ensure i could continue staying in hostel... So me & my member had found a house to rent around the university recently... & i had successfully sign the agreement to rent the house for which unclear circumstances i had became the chief tenant of the house... So i had to bear any responsibilities on the house if it was anything wrong with it... Hence, its got to be a whole new experience for me next semester... Hope it will be great for me & my coursemate also with my housemate~~ cheers~~ ;)

Sudden Felt Of Being Love Right Or Wrong.....

2010-03-13T23:21:00.004+08:00

Oh god... Its been 10months since my past relationship ends... Could say that during this period its neither long nor short... But something still spinning round my heart... Its not that i hadn't gave up, but a sudden felt of thinking about the past of being worthy or not for loving her...Whether its right or wrong... Through her activities on facebook through her post, especially on those lovey-dovey words on her current relationship, it makes me felt... What the hell... Then there is few words spinning round my head, 'who did i love before? did i love the wrong person?'... Those lovey-dovey words came through her when i am still her love one... I always thought it could be so real that it didn't occur to me that she'll be leaving me until that day she really ditch me... Looking back, am i foolish?? Euww~~ those lovey-dovey words that came from her whether is from her mind,mouth,action or heart to her current love one makes me nauseous... It was like shit... Disgusting... All that was just a LIE~~ So i had been thinking whether is it wrong or right to love her before this... Well, it seems that it wouldn't have an answer to this questions.... *nauseous*

Thanks.......

2010-01-23T20:27:00.003+08:00

Well, its been a long long time since i last update my blog... i had thought lots of things bout my life & so on... the past is always the past... the time couldn't stop at where it was & the time still goes on... so does my life... my single life its getting more meaningful with my family & friends... the most important thing that my life are getting meaningful is to learn to let go... everything that i lose before is just a lesson for me... a bad lesson that let me stand up once again towards a better me... all i need to do is just to walk on... and of course there is always someone there to help us when we're down... and here i would like to thanks a person that appear in front of me when i am down at that moment... i felt guilty and owe her very much... before i am in relationship she's a best friend of mine... a very nice friend indeed... but because of my relationship i had let go of this friend of mine... but in the end when my relationship failed, she is the one who comfort me when i am in a very down moments... she is indeed a good gal... thanks to her that now i am feeling better... a thousand thanks would never be enough to repay her kindness... thanks.......

Its Time.....

2009-11-09T14:52:00.003+08:00

I think its time... Its time to let go of something that i couldn't bring myself to do it long time ago... Now she's getting fine & some progressing in her love life, and from one of my member told me... At such far away distance and she alone at there, there will be a needs for a gal to find a shoulder to lean on... Its truth... And a phrase from my coursemate friend told me that 'If that is what she wants, LET HER GO'. With this piece of advice from my friend, i had wake up to my sense... Its what she wants since she initiated the break up... Well, i couldn't be so selfish as to keep holding on to someone that already had stop loving and care for me... Although she is the gal for me, but in the reality, i'm not the guy for her... Wishing her can get the happiness that she wants......

Tears Flow.......

2009-11-09T02:25:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogging... sorry as i had been busy with my study this semester as my course schedule is packed... Well, its already been a semester... And its got to end soon... She never contact me at all... And i can see that she's living happily with her universities life at there... And i can see that there's some progressing in her love life... Seems like her single status won't be too long... Well, all i can do is just hope her have a happiness life ever after... I had never shed tears for any gals and i didn't shed a tears ever since that day she left me... Well, i hope this time i can really accept it and buried all those beautiful bittersweet memories inside my heart as it couldn't be removed from my heart... All i can do now is just buried it... Happiness always my love...

Missing Her........

2009-09-06T09:14:00.002+08:00

Oh... its been a long time since i blogging... well, now i still felt that somenthing had been missing in my life... i miss her so much... will often think that why must she treat me like this... we're fine all this while... well, love is so complicated and troublesome... all i can do is just wait for the day i had been waiting for to come... but on the same time i should occupied my time enjoying with my coursemate go out have fun and sometimes really feel like i should change myself totally rather being before of me as a silly guy... well, should start drinking alcohol, going clubbing or etc... erm, should i?? i'll consider about it throughly first...

I'm Waiting...

2009-08-18T07:58:00.003+08:00

she's back in hometown... hope she'll have a happy moments in hometown... but i am still waiting for her to chat with me through online because i couldn't initiative chat with her as i worrying that she's avoiding me... so i don't think that i should have disturb her... and the most important thing is that i still hoping fate would stop playing me...

Sweet Dreams...

2009-08-14T05:53:00.002+08:00

after unable to sleep for two days because of rushing assignment, i had a wonderful rest and sleep after finish my assignment... and even a wonderful dream... well, i just woke up by the sweet dream... my sweet dream was wonderful... i dreamt of me and my love one walking by the night market which in malay was 'pasar malam' which we had wish to go but never got the chance... haha... i don't know why i got this dream but now after i woke up i felt sad... i wish that i never woke up by this dream and continue my dream forever and wish the time could stop by there forever... i dream of her smile, dream of her care for me, dream of her gentleness towards me... dream of anything that the past with me... i wish i could control of myself but i failed again... today will be the day that she finally will be home after so long time at far away place... i think her parents will be over the cloud as they miss her loving daughter finally back home... haha... i wish i could meet her again rather than everyday staring at her facebook photo... silly of me... maybe as my best form six classmates mention to me... he said 'girls will always think too much, girls will sometimes feel insecure - when they're in seperate place, girls will always think what is good for her other half, girls wouldn't want to drag their other half to trouble' ...does this mean break up is the good cause of my love one just because of don't want drag me?? silly... anyway, its a fact that she doesn't felt anything towards me now... so last but not least hope she will have a safe journey back home and will have a wonderful moment at her own hometown... i will cherish my dream until the day we would be able in reality walk at night market...

Tiring Day...

2009-08-13T07:09:00.002+08:00

i'm so tired and sleepy after 2 days of rushing assignment... however, today is the submission of the assignment... and hopefully after this i can have a good sleep... on the other hand, last few days i think i had make her angry again by scolding my friends for posting a comment on her scolding her with coarse word... i felt very angry and scold that friends of mine... but she replied said take it as never happen... of course i wouldn't agree with her because i couldn't let anyone scold her... i felt very angry... but she ask me to calm down... i just couldn't... she asked me not to continue scolding that person on her friends facebook wall... i know that its not right but i just couldn't let that thing happen to her... i couldn't control myself although we had seperated... she dislikes me quarrel with anyone and i know that she will be unhappy and even angry with me for not giving her face in front of her friends and also we're not related anyway... but i still can't let anyone scold her... she's important to me..i also already apologize to her friends for quarrelling with my friends on her wall... and sorry making her angry and unhappy...

2009-08-13T02:51:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsGryMDZp3I

Still Hanging At Studio...

2009-08-12T05:24:00.002+08:00

i'm still rushing my studio assignment at studio at 5.25 am in the morning... i'm tired and sleepy and also hungry because every night i only had an milk for dinner... so now i'm so hungry and tired... after this maybe 6 am will be going back to bath and take a nap if the time allow me to... will be going back faculty at 8 am... but in this moment when i'm still busy with my studies, i'm still thinking of her... full of her... full of happy moments with her... full of sadness with her... anything about her... i still can't let go from my heart...

Time Can Proves Anything....

2009-08-09T10:24:00.003+08:00

well, i got to know this piece of advice from her mother... give both of me and her some time to cool down... time will prove anything... maybe because at that time she was tired after working for half year or any other incident that makes her lost in herself in our relationship, and adding my pressure giving to her... so she had no other chance but to make this hard decision... from her mother advice, giving her sometime maybe like that will let her clear her mind and know what to do clearly... and know only i realize i do not understand her feelings but keep giving her pressure... i really done another great mistakes and hurt her... so now we only can let time to prove our love... and so on, her family still giving me fully support on our relationship... i am grateful to her family and will work on harder to get her to accept me once again... i will wait for that day to come...

I'm Contented.....

2009-08-09T04:57:00.000+08:00

today as i leave a message on her facebook, she got reply me and seems like with an unangry tone... i feel contented as she still reply me on facebook and she finally ask me to take care of myself... actually it doesn't seems anything good had happen but for me i already felt contented... although i know that i shouldn't think too much and i know this doesn't mean that she accept me right now, but at least we're still friends for now... maybe is i too compulsive and end our relationship more worse... but for now i shouldn't think too much for our relationship as i didn't get an confirmative answer yet... then i wouldn't get hurt more deep enough when she got another boyfriend or whatever... but i still believed our bond wasn't so weak... maybe she really is thinking too much about our relationship or she just wanted to take a rest from me... well, who would know such matters as we wouldn't know what could have happen in the future... so i shouldn't be carrying too much thoughts in this moment... just wish she would be safe and happy at so far away places alone... everyday praying for her to be safe...

Something Is Missing.........

2009-08-08T22:23:00.001+08:00

TIRED, still rushing on my assignment project at studio... while doing my assignment suddenly felt something is missing... i miss her very very much... argh... anyway, get busy with my assignment first...

Busy Day Ahead...

2009-08-08T12:30:00.000+08:00

today i'm going to start my busy day as i'm going to rush my 1st studio assignment which needed to be handout on Monday... oh my gosh, sure will do until late night or maybe even can't sleep... but on the same time as i'm busy i will think of her... sigh... before that no matter what condition or even any thing that i'm doing, i will told and share with her... even a small matter i would also share with her as she is my love and trusted person in my life... just like a little kid sticking by their mother... i would also do the same towards her... haha... but now i only can recall about it... its a sad feeling now... and so on, this is a happy memory for me now... anyway, i'm going to get busy the whole weekend... work hard!!

Fading Feeling........

2009-08-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

is it possible for feeling that are nurture by time will fading off ? is it our bond are so weak ? will i be forgotten by time and even distance ???

I'm Bad Guy!!!

2009-08-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

suddenly thought of my unforgiveable wrongdoings in my life that i had done to my love one... my greatest wrong is that i had shouted so loud at my love one for two times at the same moment... i never shouted at her before... she's a gal and my love one... but i shouted at her... she was terrified and shocked when i shouted so loud at her... i had regretted what i had done... i didn't mean it as i was too agitated and as i had mentioned i'm an emo lad who are unable to control my emotions well... but for my rashness and hot tempered, i lose control of myself... i had done something stupid and unforgiveness for my stupid idiotic behavior... i'm remorseful... i wish the time could had stop at that moment to prevent this incident from happening... I'M A BAD GUY!!! i wish to apologize to my love one in front of her but i could not face her... I'M SORRY...

Its A Fact That Time Are Needed...

2009-08-07T08:25:00.000+08:00

Until today i realised that time is needed to clear all those misunderstand and pain from a complicated matters... even until today i finally realised more than it!! i finally realised that love wasn't just a mutual feeling of love, like, and care towards both person rather then this all... love can be blessful and yet it can be hurtful in sometimes... and from this incident, i realised that i didn't be an understanding person towards the person that i love all this while and this mistakes i had been doing even until the day that our relationship ends... on the other hand, my feeling towards her aren't getting lesser but its getting deeper after losing her... its an agony to lose her... my life without her was like a hell... although our relationship ends, but all my mind was full of her smiles and images of our happy moments... because she's already been in my heart since that day i love her... its a deep scar that i had carve her inside my heart... and i felt sorry for both of us that ends up our relationship because of today what we are now, i'm partly to be blame... for my rashness and hot tempered... as time pass by, my emotions are getting much better... time actually can heal the pain and clearing those misunderstands that i had in her... Apart from it, i had received great comfort and opinion from her family and both our friends in order to clear up the mess in our relationship and start afresh with her... all we need was just TIME.....

Devastated & Disappointed

2009-06-27T09:16:00.000+08:00

starting my life afresh after today... going to further studies at UPM... feeling unbearable for one person that i love most and suddenly its gone for nothing... unresolvable and confusing relationship makes me feel sad and disappointed... going to forgot everything and start my whole new journey on my life... trying to find my path out of a whole dark world in nowhere... will trying to find new direction of life and move on... (^.^)